Last Thursday I saw my diabetes doc, and while I have a couple of minor issues to work on (getting my A1C down to 6.5; losing the last 20 lbs.) I am in very good shape. Even my habitually low blood pressure was lower, which means the exercise is still paying off. He was quite pleased, and it's always a relief to have a good checkup.
As I've been rather anxious over all this, and also deeply upset over recent events in the world, I gave myself the next day and the weekend off to take it easy, especially as the following week was my deadline week for my first day job project of the year. At present I'm working up the last of a skein of variegated yarn into a no pattern moss-stitched clutch for my art supplies, mainly so I can see the color changes in this yarn (Bitty Stripes by Red Heart Super Saver in Moonbeam) and use up the rest of the skein. After that I'm going to make a quilt for my nephew's dog. Maybe. I'm trying not to put any more pressure on myself until I get the day job project finished. This to me is lazy, but there you go.
The fact is that I'm not accustomed to taking it easy. I take it busy, hard, difficult, stressful, patience-testing, exhausting, and anything else but easy. It's not in my nature to laze around. I have so many responsibilities that I will never be able to keep up with them all or do them perfectly, but I try my best despite knowing this. It's becoming harder, too, the older I get, but that's life. I don't have a lot of time left to do anything, so I'd rather not waste it.
That said, it's nice to set aside all my plans and just crochet something mindless. I don't want to do it all the time, but right now it's good for me. I need to let my frazzled nerves settle down, as I have other work-intensive situations ahead to deal with like hurricane season, moving my nephew into his new house, another family member visiting, etc.
I will be stepping up my exercise and watching my diet more closely after I turn in my project for the day job. I'll also be going on a week of vacation, so I can have more fun. Until then, I will be as kind to myself as I possibly can. :)
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