When you're wired differently you see things from an uncommon perspective. It's why people like me are unable to join in groups and behave like others, and why we're often made to suffer because of it. The herd demands uniformity and obedience to their demands, and from their persepctive when you don't fit in or obey them, you have to be corrected and punished. The tragedy is that you're really no different from anyone in the herd, except that you don't need or want to be part of the herd. You're fine on your own. Your crime, if you want to call it that, is that through your independence you make the herd see that the herd isn't necessary. That is in their view unforgivable. I came to the realization that I've tolerated the herd's bullying for much of my life because I regarded myself as defective -- as missing something important that everyone else has. This need to herd, to be part of something bigger and (questionably) better than ...
Since my attempt to actually coffee stain something failed, I'm going to try to stain the same bag with tea, since that seems to work better for me. Recycling tip: when your black tea bags expire, don't throw them away. Save them in a jaw and label it for tea-staining. I didn't leave the bag soaking in tea for long -- about an hour -- but the difference is remarkable. No more coffee staining for me. :)